something to remember

breaking dawn is soo good i finished it again, right now i am waiting for my school letter to tell me who my teachers are, also when i get my letter im gonna write my essay, which i wrote i just need to type up, im bored

1. FMA
2.death note (read Manga too)
3. Card Captor Sakura
4. Naruto
5. Lucky star
6. Read fruba

i am really bored here, i dont evan know why  i post no one uctally comments, anyway, bbbbbbbbbbbboooooooooooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedddddddddddddddddddddddddd 
haha yeah 

LoVehAte 122 994 (9:44:22 PM): yes i know
LoVehAte 122 994 (9:45:05 PM): quoting emma here, "she has a hard time making friends but an even harder time keeping them." quoting julia and ellen, "because she treats her friends like dirt."
LoVehAte 122 994 (9:45:33 PM): i can understand that to this day. not that ur a bad person but i think u might be the definition of anti-social.
TeddyMunchkin913 (9:45:48 PM): i am
LoVehAte 122 994 (9:45:55 PM): is that a question? 

thank god he was there, evan if i didnt talk to him much, at least i saw him, haha his hair lol

damn it i need to go to karate now, and i need him to be there, damn it why do i have to like him that hard, i dont evan know if i do or if i think i do, DAMN why cant he be there where was he he sucks GOD DAMN it i need karate and i need him to be there  other wise i am going to explode, maybe im just reading to much romance, if so DAMN reading

so we have been reading the outsiders in school amazing, but anyway i got my teacher to let us have outsaier day, where we dress up like the greasers and or socs, and so i put on a pair of stained jeans, cuffed um put on converse, took a baggie white t shirt, cut the sleeves off, whore a tasnk top under it, had a jean jacket on, greased my hair(that was a pain in the ass vand it was nasty) but i was one of the ppl to win a prize, yeah a bunch of candy oh yeah all the while ppl looked at me like i was insane, i guess there were ppl who still havent gotten the memo lol

"White Flag"

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I Love this song, its pretty, and it is something that makes sense to me.

ok so i think i might actually Love some guy, or ast least really really like him, shrug yeah I just hope I see him asgaing because he wasnt at karate today, and it was upsetting because i was really looking forward to seeing him. sigh

amazing it was dubed but it was still awesome and funny, yeah and sads, Light isnt as bid of an evil ass hole in the anime, at least not at first shrug

YES IT SHALL THE MONKEY WILL BLOW UP SENDING A MESSAGE TO  monkeys that it is time to take over the world, i yes I Fleetingfish shall leed them to victory mwahaha. beware of thy monkeys

im home sick today oh what fun, so far i have spent the entire day playing with an hot pink golf ball oh what fun

i miss last year last may it was so much better, and the fasct thast i just looked at my lj and sayw that i my posts were much more interesting than they are now just depressess me more

middle school sucks

so eva never picked up her damn phone so i couldnt hang out with her at the park and then hannah imed me and i walked  over to the other park and we hung out there, and then my brother picked me up i ate food and then my daddy and my mommy took me shopping and i got the most amazing swim suit i will have a picture lata, and then  i might go to the other park again tmw, yeah it shall be fun and im going to boston on ffriday

ok so to day is first day of spring break and i spent the hole day almost wathing amv yeah i need a life thoyugh i did go over to jame's and we played gutiar hero whic h i cant play to save my life but it was fun tmw i am going to the park  mabe and me and evan will hang o7ut that at least wont be as boring, and then i will get to go to karate which is nice so uh yeah 

m,y parents went to glenc falls today soo my brother was left in charge and he fed me these really grose food i think they were supposed to be moteralla sticks they tasted like shit, i wanted to puke they were grose

i fi9nally saw 300 today most amazing movie ever. it was so sad at times too i loved it though now i need to see patriot and a dozen other movies =D

but whatever, so anyway i am gonna get my yellow belt soon, oh yeah thats awesome, i found a new song i am obseesed with, hahaha\
i saw the cardcapor sakura movie it was great  uh yeah i really have no clue what to post but i can allways babbale um this week is spring break so i can do what ever the hell i want and i get to go to boston also  i might go to the playground during the week if i feel like it. um i went to new york and spent 60 dollars but i got jessica the perfect gift, i bought hannah a magnet and a keychain, her sistersome m&ms and her other sister a key chain and i goit her brother some gum i also went rollar blading the day after that and fridsay i went to jessicas house and we did random stuff, oh i made a rice ball,  i threw stuff at jessica's brother, haha yeah i will post more ofton so u ppl dont get these random updates full of stuff

i need sleep badly what ever

oh yeah i got that song on my i pod and i made jessicas birthday present yay oh yeah life is good

I gots no clue what to write any more 

ok soo i went out to the bus stop, and i had pig tails in my hair, i was wearing a jacket which lookedlike something a 7 year old would wear, and when i got to the drive way where the people waited for the bus, and  i was older than allk the other kids, but while they were all at a swig set, acting like ass holes, i was walikng around in the driveway  stepping on the ice, watchingthe chinks of ice crack because there was water under the ice.

You would thik a 13 year old wouldnt find somethng like ice entertaining, but well yeah

uh hi, soo i dont follow through on posting, but  ima gonna post once a week for now on maybe

 sooo i never got my homework finshed, and i fell asleep sooo i never posted, but i might post a real entry later or something

it is 8:26 PM right now i have school tomorrow, and i got two weeks of homework to do, that includes a book  i need to have finished, which i never got till friday night , the reason i gots soo much homework is because well, i have been sick for a week, then the week after that was break, (and like i would ever do home work during break) yeah soo i will post again when i have finished all my home work, soo at 3 in da morning i will post

HOMEWORK SUCKS

sfter weeks of begging i manged to talk my dad ion to letting me go to hannahs dojo, and it was great, i didnt do anything, i just watched, but me dad signed me up and i get to go to karate on friday, and maybe saturday tooo yaay, and and they played dogeball and i got to play too,  and i was on grace and joannas team, and they just clung to mee, and after class was over they kept talking to me and like yhea it was wierd but now that i think of it it remids me of when i was in fifth grade.

flashback
it was a half day and  reahanin and her girl scout troop (who were all six at the time)were going to build a bear, and i was in vited to since reahanins mom was my baby sitter (i was 11 what did my mom think i was gonna burn down the house or saomething) so then  reahanin and her mom and i  went to reahanins troop leaders house first, and as soon as i got out of the car the little girls all swarmed around me and they were listening to everything i said and asked alot of questions(which i thoiught was a tad annoying) but anyway when we got to the praking lot of the mall the troop leader said that i had to be partners with the other tag along(the other kid who was there cus she could not be home alone) and this girl was libby. libbly was about four, but was not in kinder garden yet, for all i knew she was three, she was quiet and sisnt say much but when we got to build a bear the little girl libby(or maybe iot was livvie) but the point was that she folled me everywear, which i didnt mind so much cus she was ruiet) but this was in may or like april, no no may, then when ever i saw any of the girls  from reanins troop they spazzed out and the n clung to me, and then the chours  had to sing one day and a few girls from the troop saw me and were freaking out W/E and then (blah blah blah blah) ya know they just clung

END FLASH BACK 

yhea any way so tonight i asked hannah why little kids clung to me and her reply was,

because little kids love you that is your social level

 

yay i have the social level of a 6 year old, well i am matyure as a 6 year old but i know that i stoped caring about that a long time ago. so i am gonna end up just have a bunch of little kids following me around untill i mature to the point that i should be, only by the time i mature to tthe point where they should not want to hang out with me, they will be at that age and maturatity too.   W/e 

wow it has be3een a long timje, something tells me i said this last time i posted, and yhea i am still sucking in school, but i am stil among the livin, 
hee hee wow right now i am reminded of the movie Corps Bride and how when the guy went to the place were all the dead ppl were everything was colorful and stuff, but when the guy was alive and in the place were ppl were alive every thing was like had no color to it,  and  the dead world was fun and up beat,  and  i think that  was the point but it makes me think that when we die that we are happier, and everything is better, 
i think right now would be a good time to  to tell hannah to calm down and relax because i am not saying that i am gonna kill myself.
i am never going to purposely kill my self bi could never to that to the ppl around me,  which now reminds me of a song called  
be my escape
though  wooops i gtg wow  i have spent waaaayy too much time on aim 

I LOVE SIMPLE PLAN MAD AWESOME BAND wow i have not used mad awesome in sooo long it makes me sad, sooo i will edity this enty later bye bye

i have decided that i am gbonna change, well not change more like mature, be myself, but the side i dont show much, i have noticed that i dont  post much any more, and i am gonna change that, looking back i  was so happy, i was my random self, and then iu was the emo kid but i will never cut my wtrist, i will ner jump out a window, i am gonna be me the hyper calm crazy sane sad person that i haave allways been, every emotion i have ever had and i think that it will work out, i am not changing for any one but me and  yhea, i am gonna be doing better in school  wow ok

I HATE MY FUCKEN TOWN I HATE IT SO MU7CH THE PPL ARE BITHES FULL OF SHIT, THE PPL THAT ARE NICE DONT BELONG THERE, THE COACHES ARE ONLY INTERESTED IN GOOD PLAYERS, WHAT ABOUT FUN, I HASTE THIS TOWN I CANT BELIVE I HAVE PUT UP WITH IT FOR SO LONG THE PPL AT MY GRADE SCHOOL I NOW SEE WHY I NEVER GOT ALONG WITH THEM THEY DIDNT LIKE ME I WAS TOO CRAZY I WAS ANNOYING I WAS MEAN I  WAS DIFFRENT FROM THEM I WAS THE ONE  PERSON AT THAT STUPID GRADE SCHOO,L WHO SAW  IT I RERAMEMBER LAST YEAR   A POPULAR GIRL FOUND OUT THAT THERE WEREPPL WHO HATED HER AND I WAS ONE OF THEM AND WTF I DONT SEE WHY SHE CARED HALF THE FUCKIN SCHOOL HATES MEE AND OTHER THAN THIS ENTRY I BARELY COMPLAIN I KNOW I AM A LOSER I KOW THAT AS LONG AS I LIVE IN THIS FUCKED UP TWON I WILL FROEVER BE A LOSER AND I DONT FUCKIN CARE ANY MORE RIGHT NOW I AM CLOSE YTO JUMPING OUT A WINDOW AND KILLIN MY SELF AND I WOULD TOO BUT I CANT FOR A COUPLE REASONS I CANT COMMIT SUCIDE (LONG STORY) I CANT DO THAT TO THE PPL AROUND ME,  I WANT TO MOVE SO BADLY SO BADLY

life is something that is unknown, you live you die, but what do we live for and what do we die for, what is the point of living, happyness? love, hope? where is hope when you need it and love only destroys you. there is no room for happyness in a world like this, whay do we evan exsist, if all we do is cause pain, or brake hearts. why do we betray the ones we love, we hate those we do not nkow and and love those we know? that is not what we should do, love all, those who do you wrong welcome them with open arms, hate no one, love all, isn't that how life should be? well it is not, we hang around those we would rather not and keep our distance from those we would rather hang around. and for what? self image? what has life come to? nothing and anothing ever will unless we try, try to make lif to what it truly can be unless we do all we can for this world1 that is what our goal in life should be

hi hi guess what well at the moment i have trouble writing Fan fiction so i am gonna write a plain old story and post it on Silver writings yay the name of the title is a gonna be   My name is Emma moon

I can't wait to finish it

I love Cardcaptor Sakura! Not the bad American dub, but the the actual Japanese version!! I watch it on YouTube with subtitles. Any way for Halloween I was gonna dress up like a pirate with my friend, but I am not friends with that person anymore, so now I am gonna dress up like Cardcaptor Sakura, and my best friend Eva is going to go as Sakura's friend. The picture above is a picture of Sakura, and thats the outfit I'm gonna make. that is gonna be hard, oh well.


this is the the opening theme for season one, catch you catch me!! I have only seen the first two episodes,
but thats because I just started watching the series today. yay Anime!!

1. Bite Me. a Remus Tonks story. from when they first start to fall in Love, to the end, Warning contains spoilers!

2. And this is why lying is stupid! A marauder era story. right so a very annoying girl named Katie loves James, but James loves Lily and so to to get out of dating Katie, he says that he is dating a girl named Brook Reppacourt. Brook who had just broke up with her boyfriend was really mad. So then Brook and James have to pretend to go out. Meanwhile the Marauders have pulled a huge prank that could get them ex-spelled, and the caretaker is watching them very carefully, and Remus keeps having to lie about where he goes once a month, Peter, well who really cares? and Sirius is on the run from his crazy ex girlfriend. so wow alot of really stupid lies, though there might be more lies I just have to think of, I AM NOT SURE IF THERE WILL BE SPOILERS IN THIS STORY YET  .

3.What we are made of. a poem about what it takes to be a Gryffindor.

4.riding lessons. this is a Story on TWP and I will most likely write it on this site too. Abby is a plain girl who loves to ride horses, her dad is in Jail, and she goes to an all girl school, so she doesn't really know many boy, and when Jamie comes into her life everything gets harder for her. this is a non harry Potter Story, or fan fic for that matter.

5. Tears of sorrow once again a non harry potter story. One day  Rebia's father hurried her into a car and drove for a long time, finely they stopped in the middle of new York city and he told her to get out of the car, when she got out he gave her a suit case and then drove away. now she in trouble and has no clue why she is in this place to begin with,  I might change the title.

so these are the story's that i will at some point in time start writing

so I have been going to a field hokey camp and at lunch I have been eating really healthy (for a good reason) and today I decided to eat unhealthy. well you can't even imagine how that turned out. okay so I had eight chicken nuggets, a soft taco, ice cream, a banana,three cookie's and to drink I had a doctor pepper. it was not that unhealthy, but for me it was.
    Now I am sure you are wondering how eating that made me sick, well me and my friend Ana went to make Root beer floats (for the record I hate root beer) gut after a couple sips I stopped eating it and then I still hadn't eaten my banana so I dipped in to my root beer float. and then I noticed that I had finished my doctor pepper so instead I got mountain dew (once I have unhealthy food there is no stopping me) and when I got back my other friend Mary had gone to get soda too and when she got back she said that she had mixed Pepsi, Mountain Dew, and doctor Pepper.
    So I got up (still holding my Mountain Dew) and went to do the same thing, only I had doctor pepper,           Seira Mist, and Mountain Dew. then when I got back Ana mixed the cup of mountain Dew with the other cup in my hand. then she took the melted Root Beer float and mixed that with it too. I looked SO gross but then I took a sip and it was really good and then my other friend Grace took a sip and said it was good too, then Ana took a sip and then took some or her melted Ice cream (chocolate, cooker dough, and some other type) and poured it into the cup. and once again it was really good but looked really gross.
    Then we got up and walked over to where the coaches sat ( which was not far from where we sat) and tried to get the coaches to drink it and one of the coaches said it looked like swamp juice, thats what the mix is called. then one of the other coaches told us to drink it so Ana did, then Grace did, then i did again, then Ana took another big gulp, then Ana said "lets go put more soda in it!" so we ran off to do so. then I heard a o girl from another camp be all " gross whats that?" and then Ana had added more soda to the swamp Juice . and we had it in two different cups me and Ana were sipping the swamp Juice as we were walking out of the cafeteria. then outside we saw a garbage can and threw it out. and we were walking to the lounge place thingy or whatever it is called to watch the movie. AND I FELT SO SICK!!!!!!!! my stomach hurt and so did my head and then we had to run laps. okay and if you walked then you would have to run all day I was running sorta fast. I thought I was going to puke.
    and as I was packing up to go home the coaches came up to me and their like
"You are not going to eat that crap that you had today." and they were telling me what to have instead.
      see this is why it is bad for me to have sugar. MY HEAD STILL HURTS DO NOT EVER MAKE  SWAMP JUICE YOU WILL FEEL SO SICK wow yeah um that was one of my STUPIDEST Ideas yet and that is something I have had some really stupid Ideas.
 speaking of which I have had to use spell check 100 timesw

Okay so my internet has been down for tow days, TWO DAYS!!. TWO  STINKIN DAYS.
and I have just been too lazy to post. I have a new idea for a story which at some point I will get around to writing.

whats wrong with me? there is like nothing I want to do. I'm even getting sick of the internet! *gasp!*
ugh!! I can't wait until I can  go to camp I am so bored man I'm so bored  I  might even  clean  my  room!!  *gasp again!!* and if you saw my room right now, you would run away screaming! Lol no really you would run.

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what why am I always a loner I mean come on oh well

hello all! yeah um hi this is now going to be a friends only Journal but hey just leave a comment and well see. but for the record I am some what of a spaz, in a good way